So, it's 6 AM and I've been up since 4. Sometimes when my husband snores I think it's Lily crying out. That combined with needing to use the bathroom woke me up. Once I'm up I rarely go right back to sleep. Can I just state that I hate this and it makes pregnancy and motherhood even more difficult. But anyway, I've had some good quality time with my cat Rosie and Jesus. Why is it that the middle of the night (or the early AM hours) bring out the worst thoughts and worries? I have much to be grateful for and my life is abundant, but at night all I can think of are bad thoughts. Then I pray and turn over my fears and worries and seek to find something positive to think on, only to find something else to worry about. Oh brother!
Well, the good news is that I know I am on solid ground. I've never been one to repeat mantras or anything of the sort, but I'm reading Believing God by Beth Moore, and she encourages thinking on/repeating true statements about God to increase faith. So, I've been thinking on these truths throughout the last few days and nights: God is who He says He is. God can do what He says He will do. I am who God says I am. I can do all things through Christ. God's Word is alive and active within me.
I do believe this. God has shown himself to be faithful and true. I don't need to live in the pit of fear, hopelessness, worry, doubt, etc.... Even when pregnancy and post pardum hormones cast a dark shadow over my mind, I know I am in God's hands and there I am safe. I have hope that Jesus walks with me through every trial of life and even gives me peace and rest. What hope to cling to!
Well, the good news is that I know I am on solid ground. I've never been one to repeat mantras or anything of the sort, but I'm reading Believing God by Beth Moore, and she encourages thinking on/repeating true statements about God to increase faith. So, I've been thinking on these truths throughout the last few days and nights: God is who He says He is. God can do what He says He will do. I am who God says I am. I can do all things through Christ. God's Word is alive and active within me.
I do believe this. God has shown himself to be faithful and true. I don't need to live in the pit of fear, hopelessness, worry, doubt, etc.... Even when pregnancy and post pardum hormones cast a dark shadow over my mind, I know I am in God's hands and there I am safe. I have hope that Jesus walks with me through every trial of life and even gives me peace and rest. What hope to cling to!
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Our church playgroup is having a special speaker today, teaching us about planting spring bulbs and pruning. My flower beds are in serious need of some work! I do love spring flowers, and the work that I didn't want to do in the fall always fails in comparison to the beauty of the colorful flowers after a dreary winter. Always reminds me of the spiritual walk. Weeding out sin, allowing wounds to heal, planting God's truth in our heart's garden, these things take work and discipline, but oh, the rewards are great. The blessings are beautiful!
Daffodils, grape hyacyinths, and lily of the valley are my favorite. I'm going to let Lily help me plant some bulbs this year. I think she will love it. I'm sure it will be a messy adventure. Hopefully I'll get a good night's sleep before tackling that job. :)
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